Ok, I binged, yes again... but this time is was more controled and it felt less frightening. But I'm sick of it. Sick of binging. so instead of going through this stupid binge/fast cycle, im just gonna restrict, but a lil higher than my usual 160 cal a day. I am aiming for 380 a day. or 400 and less. Starting with a healthy bowl of high fiber cereal and almond milk. and an apple with 1 tbs peanut butter for the rest of the day. I will also drink a cup of green tea everytime i eat so it will keep my metabolism high and up running.
I gained 3 pounds from this binge. I am tired of this. I will continue rugby and everything I love without having the need to binge and fast. I won't give in to this sickness not anymore. I will go into recovery as soon as they accept me. Because I know I will destroy myself if I don't. And if you are like me, just pay a little attention to that good voice inside your head, just a little. It will be one step closer to being beautiful and healthy.
All is said. Love yous -xoxox-
try peanut butter with the apple, it taste's fantastic.
ReplyDeletegood luck with recovery btw :)